I think that even though G-Man and I knew right at the beginning that we would have problems conceiving, I have been just waiting around, hoping to get pregnant. I have been avoiding getting to involved in other things, including other passions of mine, because I wanted to be prepared for when God would give us a child. I am free to focus on other things now.
This does not lessen the pain but it does clear the mind.
I have a "hope chest" that I started a little while after G-Man and I got married. It wasn't the smartest thing to do because it just served as a reminder of what we don't have. But I went through it a couple times since we found out. I am planning a retreat to the Sisters of Life in Feb. and will be giving all these beautiful items to them as a kind of healing and letting go symbol.
G-Man and I will be continuing Creighton for my health and for the beautiful blessings it gives our marriage.
G-Man and I would pray from the beginning of our marriage, "Lord, please give us children. But not our will but YOURS be done." What a wonderful blessing for us to know God's will and be able to accept it even when it HURTS
“God in his providence has two ways of blessing marriages: one by giving them children; and the other, sometimes, because he loves them so much, by not giving them children. I don't know which is the better blessing. In any event, let one accept his own." St. Josemaria Escriva