Sept. 2009: G-Man and I got married. We were expecting problems because of his past history of cancer. However, we naively thought that God would just work a miracle for us.
Oct. 2009-Sept 2010: Many prayers, tears and pregnancy tests to no avail. Realize cycles are a bit long, around 32 days.
Aug. 2010: My best friend, Sk, conceives. I'm happy but heartbroken. They had been married 2 months.
Sept 2010: It is one year of "unprotected" intercourse and I know how fertility problems are defined! I start feeling weird and really believe that this is the month! AF comes exactly on CD 28 for the 1st time. I'm crushed.
Oct. 2010: Sk miscarries. My period doesn't come. BFN over and over again! I find a family doctor; Doc. G
Nov. 2010: Cycle lasts 59 days: Sept 18th- Nov. 16th. We hold off more tests.
Dec. 2010: AF doesn't come. Doc. G orders an ultrasound saying, "Sometimes pregnancy is hard to find." I am hopeful but going CRAZY!!! Christmas is very difficult; mom won't let the idea of a grandchild go.
Jan. 2011: AF arrives, CD 56. Test results back, no visible problems. Normal cycles return. I start charting temperature. Sk pregnant again. I am authentically happy for her!
Feb. 2011: CrMS presentation at my house. Meet the FC Practioner. Go to Theology of the Body Course in PA.
Mar. 2011: G-Man diagnosed with skin cancer. This is his third cancer. We put off starting CrMS.
May 2011: We start CrMS. I have another long cycle, 54 days, but because of charting I know I am not pregnant.
Summer 2011: We start tests slowly. We discover there are going to be problems with me as well as G-Man
Sept- Nov 2011: looks like PMS, throid problems and low progesterone may be involved. We confirm that I am ovulating. G-Man's final surgery. Another long cycle. Badly sprained inside ligament of left knee.
Nov 2011: Find out G-Man has no sperm. Deep mourning and soul seaching.